A little blog hiatus + post vacay wrapup

Ya'll may or may not have (who knows who really reads here lol. might just be me haha) I took a small hiatus from the blog. This last few months I have been feeling burnt out on life and stressed to the max. I love have the blog has an outlet to let it all out and share things that I love but it was started to be just another stress. I compare myself too much to others (it really drives Nick insane) and it has been killing the joy in my life. I have so many ideas on blog posts and I am ready to get back in the swing of posting!! Vacation could not have come at a better time. I now feel refreshed and ready to take on the summer, enjoy the kids, let the stress go, let the idea of being perfect go , and oh yea continue my carb cycle. I am down 13 lbs. since April 1st! My goal is to lose 13-18 more by end of July. I know I can do it with this program. Today I am right back in the saddle. I let myself enjoy all the food and sweets while in Charleston. I was worried that when I stepped on the scale when we got home that I would have gained. But I am happy to report that I stayed the same. I did fit in 4 days of workouts! Plus lots of walking. Low carb for the next 2 days!

I am always so sad when vacation ends and it is back to real life. Sad to the point that the night before I am almost in tears. Yes it is whiney and babyish of me, I can't help it. Adulting is exhausting. lol. But I had a few more days off before returning to work with the kids and I wanted to make it a point to enjoy it to the fullest. One of those stresses lately for me is being a working mom. I feel like I miss out on so much, that I am letting the kids down by not being home, that I am letting Mere down by not being able to devote 100% on homework, studying, etc , and my moods are horrendous. I have a type A personality and want to be perfect at it ALL. But it is impossible. I know this, but it doesn't stop me from feeling like I am letting them down. Oh and the constant comparison to those stay at home moms and there "perfect" lives and kids. So back to my point before I got sidetracked....soaking up the last bit of fun with kids. I think we did a good job with just a few typical meltdowns in between! That's a win in my book!

On Friday I woke up at 6:30 and did our grocery shopping since we were out of everything. I wanted to get it done before Nick left for his mowing jobs and while kids were still asleep. I was able to get the groceries, get home, and put it all away before they even woke up! We had a few errands to run before I took them to Smale Park in Cincinnati. I love taking them there. We park in Covington and walk across the bridge (bonus points for a little workout). Mere wanted Subway so we picked that up before hand and found a spot in the shade for a little picnic. They then changed into their swimsuits (they need a bigger restroom or changing area for kids. There was so many mommas wanting to change their kiddos and hardly any room). It was the perfect day to splash around in the water and play on the playground. We spent a couple hours there before we left. We came home and fixed dinner before deciding we needed ice cream to make the day complete!

Saturday we were up bright and early to go to Augusta. My momma dog sat Sophie for us. The kids missed the animals something fierce while we were gone and could not wait to see their Sophie girl. We also attended Brady, Will, and Nick's graduation party that evening. We took a walk by the river and went swimming first though. The kids love the pool. It brings back sooo many memories for me watching them play and swim there. I spent every summer as a child swimming and then as a teenager /college student lifeguarding. Best carefree days of my life right there. We had some great times working there right Leann, Amy, Susan, Kristi, and Renee?! Oh the stories we could all sit around and tell. Two aunts that live out of town came home for the triplet's party. It was so good to see them. The kids were excited to see their cousin Peyton and are counting down until we are in North Carolina visiting them next week!!

Sunday I knew we needed to find our way back to church. I woke up nice an early to get a workout in and some things knocked off my to do list. We decided to get a pool from the dollar store after church. It was a hot one. But it ended up being a nice, relaxing day before the start of the work week. The kids wanted ice cream after dinner. Hey, it's summer, so why not. They burn so much energy playing outside all day that a little ice cream won't hurt lol.

Gonna pray work is a good day as I ease myself back into the routine of being a working momma!!