So no one tells you life is going to be hard (Well I did have one coworker in my younger years who told us single ladies to never get married and have kids. We all were like oh come on. It isn't that bad. Karen I now know what you were talking about. LIFE!! While I wouldn't change anything man those were the simple days). When you're a kid and you are all like I can't wait to be a teenager.. .then it's I can't wait to be 16 so I can drive....I can't wait to be 18 so I can be an adult.... I can't wait to be 21 so I can drink (legally lol)....and then I can't wait to get married....I can't wait to have kids! See what I am saying? Who else is with me and did this? Now I am 36 (Lord, it is hard to spit that number out.). I dread turning 40. Now why did I wish my life away? Why didn't I try to enjoy my teens more and savor every second. Or my college days! No, I had to wish for it to all be over. And why, so I could be an adult? So I could worry about bills? So I could worry about if I am sick and need to call in or suck it up so I avoid that 1 point for an occurrence? So I can worry if I truly make my spouse happy? Worry if my kids are happy? I feel like life now is one big worry. Maybe I am alone in this and most people just go with the flow. That's not me! At all! I like to stress about each and every thing....to the point that it turns me into someone I don't even recognize. My attitude instantly turns into a not so nice bad mood. I yell more at the kids for dumb stuff. Case in point! My little Max. Who decided it would be a good idea to cut his hair. Meredith thought she hid the scissors. But my Dennis the Menace found them. Oh and he went to town on the top of his hair!!
Let's just say I don't think he will be cutting his hair ever again. Or at least I hope not. Meredith also did this a couple years ago. Why must they cut their hair?? I flipped out! Nick doesn't understand why I get so upset over hair. It will apparently grow back. But see the every day stresses of life catch up to you and then when your 3 year old cuts his hair you flip your lid!!
The moral of this story! We need to stop wishing our lives away! Even now I am guilty of it! Is it the weekend yet? Is it vacation yet? Is it Wednesday yet? I need to slow down and start enjoying the ordinary days more. Stop stressing about every little thing. I need to stop looking at these other moms who I "think" have the perfect life, the perfect marriage, perfect angel kids, perfect everything, and look in front of me. Things aren't as bad as I make it all out to be. All it takes is a deep breath....and a glass of wine!!
xoxo, Tracey
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